Poems of the Solitary Mind

Ode to a Memory Soon to Remember

2011-08-08T18:44:00.000-06:00

She left one morning, with the promise that she would return.
I've been counting the days I've come to speak her name.
I just keep dreaming, these days have come to end.

The sound of old guitars keep burning chords each afternoon.
Cause I've been waiting, empty with a heavy heart.
I've been left alone for far too long.

Seems only but a promise that you left behind

She left one morning, with the promise that she would return.
And I keep waiting, counting every day.
But I just wonder, if I'll get see her then.

[Em] [G] [C] [Em]

Worries of Change

2011-08-08T14:21:00.001-06:00

And these lightning lives we live.
They pass us so quickly now.
Speeding faster as we grow older.

How quick can they move on,
But I just wish stay behind.
And now... I've realised...

All can change, all can end,
So briefly.

What worries then should one have?
Just live what needs be felt.

And keep the memories for later on.

White Collar Guard

2011-07-10T19:10:00.002-06:00

I lie there somewhere along the way…

Beneath the white pale clouded sky.

If I truly was there… If I truly be there…

My shadow would not matter,

My presence would not falter.

Oh but you shall see.

I wait still.

Unmoved. Stoic.

The stains of time move down on me.

They do so through paper,

Through pen and ink not bought with gold.

Blood.

White.

Missing the crimson taint.

Flowing down as rain down drain.

It has been now accepted.

I shall remain here.

Keeping the watch I was destined to guard.

Up the Chain

2011-07-10T01:56:00.001-06:00

I made it up to here,
The race has just begun.

Ahead darkness falls,
Ignorant of light behind.

Even the chain of fear
Comes slowly to remind,

That night covers motion,
While shadows chase my steps.

Adjacent ally, tell me,
What mortal foil are you if any?

Can you follow?
Can you heed my words?

I will strike deadly,
I will fear trembling,
I will rise vigilant...

Oh dark silhouette,
Show me fate...
Show me mercy...

Drops of the Night Sky

2011-07-10T01:44:00.003-06:00

Tell me, did the thrill sweep you off your feet,

Was it all you wanted to find?

Did your disappointment gave it all away?

Left you bound and broken I'm afraid.

I'm just a boy in a story.

A tale that covers much ground but little glory.

Tell me, did the chain broke your horse's vest,

Was it tightly pressed against its chest?

Did you expect something other than your own?

Truth be told, there's no star shining in this night,

But trust you'll be kept locked away in the dark to fight.

Under another night sky,

Different and less likely the one you want.

Winter is Coming

2011-06-19T11:17:00.000-06:00

A cold breeze whispers in my ear...
"Winter draws near!"

Alas, I had forgotten the calling.
Left it behind, thinking it was not something that could be so.

Now I wonder. Now I see it...
I wait for the call.

The chance to embark in the journey...
The adventure...

To travel across the sea.
Where Winter calls it Home.

Where we will also call it so...

Walls Closing in yet Dreams Still Shine, A Guardian Comes to Life

2011-06-13T22:19:00.000-06:00

Some say doors close upon you.
But these are the choices I make.
I feel the need to stay, despite the hardships.

Despite the doors that close.

Life... I will only have one.
Family... I will only have one.
Soul... I will only have one.

Work... I can have many.

I had the need to compromise.
Now I have the need to let the chance go.

So hard to achieve the goals others want.
Yet so easy to find my own.

I'm bound in my own journey now.
A path I chose by my will.
A wife, her daughter.

They are now... my own.
A guardian in the forest.

A guardian in my dreams...
This is what I...
Now become.

Possibilities

2011-05-22T13:18:00.001-06:00

The days roll fast as the engagement roots,
And winter approaches with a new roof
Sheltering my steed.

I do not fear the change to come,
But it does trouble me.

Beckoning to determine, to understand.
What purpose do I now hold?

This alliance is more than just
Destinies intertwined,
More than mere coincidence or luck.
It is my will.

But will my will take us away?
Far to distant lands...

I'm still wondering.
I'm still thinking.

Losing a Part of Her

2011-04-11T21:15:00.000-06:00

Nightmares don't come welcomed in my rest nights,
And tears only once had awaken me...

It was something so forbidden,
It was something so disturbing...

For I ran... and oh, I ran...

And in my hands I had part of her...

It was dying... it was broken...

Find a safe house, find a mender.
For that... I ran.

But I was somewhere lost in thoughts...
Lost in dreams...
Running from scene to another,
Not finding proper destination.

Soon the echoes of ticking in the empty space above
Reminded me that blood can quickly leave your veins.

My guiding star had fallen,
Her loving grace existence now in question.

What would I do...
Who in that dream world would understand the implications?

Sadly... no one did. No one noticed. No one cared.

I tried to explain it... I tried to share it...
But each word cascaded desperation down my throat...

I could not live then... my mind... lost...

So I stopped dreaming, weeping in silence.
Weeping in shame.

For I had lost my way when I was the only one awake...

Far Journeys

2011-03-22T20:34:00.000-06:00

Stole away from your memory.

A journey far from over.

Brothers lost and found,

Only to be lost again.

This is how it all began.

This is how it all was.

I rode amongst the crowds,

A stranger in a distant land.

A foreigner, a traveler.

One who yearns for home,

Who dreams of his love.

These are those places,

Both good and bad,

She will never see.

I could bring her back with me?

Back where?

She ponders on simple landscapes,

Close to Mother Earth.

Near Father Sun.

Maybe someday, maybe one day...

I will not have to travel alone.

Memories of Holland Park

2011-03-14T15:34:00.004-06:00

A forest in the city...
A park filled with life.
Today I walked it's paths.
Tomorrow I'll remember it's grass.

I sit and stare as people go by.

I read.

I write.

But too early is the day.
Too bright is the summer sky.

Will I remember it all?
I can always take back home things I find in the way...

I can always pretend I will not forget.

A forest in the city... a world of it's own.

Fishing Dreams with Rings

2011-03-14T09:35:00.006-06:00

And so my promise comes undone,

With a new stream bed making it's way.

My fate intertwined in a heavy flow.

I guess all I can say is... I am ready to take this river.

I am ready to take this home.

One promise to myself broken. A few words to spare only.

'No loss but face', a Thai would say with a smile.

But, I assure you, this all will hold more value as time runs by.

For it already pays kindly...

It already pays dearly... in loving gold.

Fates united. Fates unknown.

It is time to find the ring... it is time to rule them all.

Lost in my Bubble

2011-03-04T23:11:00.002-06:00

How impossible does it seem?
There is no such thing as reality here.

Deep in the depths of the best dream,
They both fill heart with loving grace.

Yet, I still feel lost.
Yet, I still feel without accomplishment.

Nothing can satisfy the hunger.
The hunter's need.

There must be prey for this hunt in these lands I now roam...

This lioness' pet cannot stay still in these calm waters.
It needs to kill.

Swim against the tide,
Feeling the resistance pushing me back,
And ripping through the bubble...

The Approaching Fate

2011-02-06T12:13:00.004-06:00

Be wary,
Here it comes.

Listen to the whispers,
Be watchful of the falling stars.

A wish, just a thought, can travel light years back and forth.

There are nights painted crowded,
Given life by the hundreds.

Follow the lines,
Take what you can.

Remember you will carry it for a long long time.

When I go weary,
My legs drift me home will.
Aside from worlds yonder,
Eying one life we could have after the other.

It seems I tend choose, the heavy soul path.

So I pay for my previous life sins.
Following the passion fate has granted me.
This passion, this mission,
Is but the path to redemption I've brought to my plate.

The approaching fate that answers my call.

Riding With You

2011-02-02T16:43:00.002-06:00

My thoughts are with you wherever you may be.
Ten thousand miles away with so much left to say.

Wishing badly you could be here with me.
Riding behind with your arms around my waist.

Would you run this far with me?
I wonder...

There is no time like the present to drink these draining seconds.
But I rather drink them with you besides me...

Aasimar

2010-12-22T23:27:00.005-06:00

Fly me to nowhere... I've never been there.
I promise I'll be back one day.

There comes times when I wish I'd be no more.
There are hours, there are days.

And yet you wish me be mortal.
Ordinary amongst those who roams the lands.

Touched by an angel.
Brought to be more than I wanted, into the light.
Redeemed of my sins.
Dispersed like ashes in the sea.

That's where you'll find me...
At the sea...

Fingers to toes...
Death releases us all.

I am being.
World rotating or world crashed down.
We all fall down the same vastness.

Can I leave it all behind?
Just for a little while... yet kept this human cover...

No one can hear me... No one can see me...
Lost and found...

Swim until you drown. Love until you hate.
You've got my trust and fears...

It's all I know...

Or Maybe I'm Just Blind

2010-12-07T20:46:00.004-06:00

"There's another world inside of me
That you may never see
There're secrets in this life
That I can't hide
Somewhere in this darkness
There's a light that I can't find
Maybe it's too far away...
Or maybe I'm just blind...
Or maybe I'm just blind..."

3 Doors Down - When I'm Gone

Whether I’m Right or Wrong

2010-11-15T22:11:00.004-06:00

I for certain don't know... so you doubt me.
Claiming I will break in woe when this love takes its fee.

You seem so certain, as if you will be the one who pulls upon me the curtain.
Yet you are not even sure if your own road is that pure...

I see you fly with a broken wing as your expectation is just too great.
You know not what your destination will bring nor if your good path is that but straight.

Tell me now... who has the wisdom or knowledge?
For certainly not those who've gone to college...
Who can tell you what you believe is a lie? No one is perfect... we are all dry.

But you know this...
And you've learned to accept it.
Mistakes will come and you will miss...
Disappointment will trouble you, and you'll have to admit.

Don't justify me.
Don't disappoint me.
Don't judge me.

But most importantly,
Don't wait for me.

Paths diverge in the forest,
And I hope... to see you on the other side.

Reenactment

2010-11-01T22:10:00.005-06:00

Such Chaos,
Such Beauty.

A wave in the ocean,
Current traveling South.

I am missing the thrill.
I am staying behind.

How far...
How long...

There are choices that should not be undone.

Go tell me the future I could have had,
Go on...

Bring forth your experienced wise touch,
Add that to a life, not even it's owner understands.

Can you tell me which path is best?
If so, I'm afraid I've chosen to not heed your words.

You see... I am lost.
I still seek purpose.

I am student in life.
Learning blow by blow.

But come on,
Dispense your advice...

I will be patient, I promise.
And I will take whatever little part of your nostalgic past you can spare...

As my own.

Rain on the West

2010-09-29T21:42:00.003-06:00

In the days of muse breaks

We have to hang on tight...

It seems the rain won't go away.
The clouds darken our days.

The rain prolongs our nights.

But in the end,
I must seek shelter,
From this place.

It spreads.

Taking a toll I cannot pay;
Burdening if I don't.

The choice is made.

The horizon does not show a sunrise,
At least not in these shores.
At least not yet.

She bids me take my place,
So I play my chances on my own...

I know what is the best.

Play my chances,
Aiding my cause.

Sometimes...
It disappoints.

Losing Something Precious

2010-09-05T17:17:00.003-06:00

Sometimes,
Just sometimes...

It would seem I lose my mind.
For I cannot make sense of this world,
I cannot make choices without seeing the obvious.

Sometimes,
Just sometimes...

I am blocked of my conscience,
I am alone and confused.
Not knowing where to pull, where to push.

Sometimes,
Just sometimes...

You see me struggle.
But honestly, you really don't care.
Because in your world, it is only you.

Alas, two selfish souls collide.
And even love can't ease edges.
No care or tenderness can cure the pain caused.

You are what you are.
I am something that sometimes...
Just sometimes...

Spins without knowing what's going on.

I don't want to lose you.
So I must find the spinner.

I don't want to hurt you.
So I must stop the spinner.

I just want that sometimes...
In those times...

I end up where I'm suppose to be:
In your arms.

Who We Are

2010-07-18T15:09:00.005-06:00

Here I lie in the middle, in the cross-fire of life.
Traveling the globe to learn the things you are to learn, or so they say.
I see life as it can be... I see life as it could be...
It is not life as it should be, though.

Not for me.
In the Heartlands. There... I belong.
My name is Nou One... from the Clan One.
I was born in the low lands of the axis of this world...

I am a mortal.
I can be killed in many ways.
Yet I have lived on... somehow...
There are others like me.

We are scattered across the realms... and we are few.
But we are out there...
Living... wandering... fulfilling the destinies we were meant to complete.
And carving our fate in the hearts of all who dare join in the cause.

We can be found in the rivers, in the mountains, in the cities, in the villages.
We are everywhere.
But you will only know who we are when your moment of final rest comes upon you.
When you recall all the memories of your life in a quick instant.

Then you will see the truth... and the one thing that marks us all in common.
Because all of us will have one moment. One second in your life.
One last thing we did with you.
The last thing you saw from all of us...

A smile.

In the brief summary. In that moment.
You will know: who we are.
What we meant,
And what we will be in that migrating part of you that will move on.
You may say again...

Fair journey, traveler.
Fair journey.

Western Summer

2010-07-13T15:23:00.005-06:00

Awaiting for my ship to sail the sky.
I run this direction once again.
Smiling. Knowing what waits for me in my return.

So what is pondering in your dreams?
Where are you headed traveler?
On the road once again?

Are you escaping today?
Or returning tomorrow?
You left but yesterday...

Where do you wish to go...
Are you all you wished so far to be?
What else lies there...

What else...

And Now...

2010-07-07T21:55:00.003-06:00

A few days from a new departure...
A few sunsets from the thrill of exploration...

An old fear strikes the hearts of men.
An old fear which constantly haunts.
An old fear soon to be released on this world.

Oh Earth Mother, why do you so burden your children?
Shall we keep on paying for the vile turns your life takes?

I will bring myself from the depths of any abyss.
I will bring my feet forward, with arms raised high.

Yet I cannot speak for my brothers...
Yet I cannot see in their hearts...
Yet I cannot say what happiness is for those who expect nothing...

And now...

Well... and now we wait...

Patiently, wisely...
An odyssey this is... an odyssey it will be...
One which I so unwillingly play...

French Proverb

2010-07-07T21:45:00.002-06:00

"One meets his destiny often in the road he takes to avoid it."

And so I met her...

I Was About To Leave

2010-06-28T17:28:00.006-06:00

I wasn't going to kill it,
That was certain...

But I needed some distance from it all.

I could not take the fact of being replaced so easily.

But aren't we all?

Replaceable...

One day, the next, or soon enough.
We cannot stay forever.

Will you stay until I fall asleep?
I don't want a replacement for you...
I'm so far into your story now...

Together...

I feel it.
I see it.

Easily.

I just wish they would think out loud.
And then we could all live in peace.

Sigh... I was about to leave when you simply said...

"I told him..."

So I stayed. So now I plan. So now I move forward.
Now... a different state from yesterday...

Another day will be tomorrow...
I want to see how far we can go if we play together.

If we play it right.

Three Rounds Later

2010-06-28T08:24:00.005-06:00

The bell rang.

There was no knock out.
We both were still standing.

My expectations went down the river, I'm afraid.
There was no decisive blow...

Yet, not all had been lost.

A feeling laid there... still intact.
Still shining past the darkness.

I could not deny what I felt,
But my Will had been damaged.

Too many blows.
Even a resilient Will can feel pain.

As the moment paused...
The lights blinded my blurry sight.

I recounted the damage done.
It didn't look good. It didn't feel right.

Maybe the scorecard will bring good news.
Maybe the scorecard will never come.

Blood.

It is when you stop...
That you realize how bad you bleed.

I will need healing.
Time can grant me that.

Will I stay for the judges' call?
I don't think I need to.

I see them arguing amongst themselves.
Looks like they can't get it clear.

As I stood there waiting.
Losing hope of a final resolution...

It came to me...

I don't need a winner.
I didn't do this to win.

I did this to fight.
Because it was a worthy fight.

That was all I wanted.
The honour of doing something worthy.

To know that I still live.
To try to grasp that which is worth living for.

Maybe someday they'll get it together,
Maybe they'll find the answer.

Maybe she will get her thoughts together.

But not now, it seems. Not now.

I turned around, smiled and headed out.
I'll come back again and fight, I'm sure.

But for now, I need to rest.

Lost with a Pebble in My Shoe

2010-06-20T22:16:00.006-06:00

A lost soul in search of redemption
For sins committed in a previous life
Of which I am not even aware of.

Bare open in truths beyond comprehension.
Where not even I can produce reason
To believe what fares so well, or so ill.

I can only stare, I can only follow.
I can only accept the fate tomorrow,
I'll see then what I can borrow.

Yet bring no expectation to my bed.
I will die before time.
Somewhere on the edge of the bestest of times...

Saga of Forgotten Ashes

2010-06-13T23:34:00.004-06:00

Burning dreams provides smoke to cloud the senses.
Blinded from images of constant contemplation.
Always ready for the sacrifice... and the reward.

It comes from bringing joy, but should there be fear?
A smile which I cannot forget, but left behind.
Promised a soul piece, but today, death handed I have given you.

There is far more sorrow that the one portrayed.
There is far more tears that the ones described.
Alas, there is only one which knows the story.

From one day to the other,
From years past to new comings,
I still search... where I can stay...

Contradicting senses...

Unbinding Mysteries

2010-06-08T18:55:00.004-06:00

Find yourself again in the same place.
Will this be the last? It's surely not the first.

My heart beats again.
Lively. Quickly.
Without remorse of my sins.

I just wonder...
The consequences of my actions.

Yet if I am but a traveler in her life?
Alas! At least I touched heart.
At least I brushed the core.

At least I know, I am beyond the realm of mortals' help.

She reminds me of valiant dreams.
She inspires that which I fear...

She...
Secretly...
Silently...

Unbinds my mysteries... one by one...

I Slept in the Forest Tonight

2010-06-04T19:55:00.003-06:00

So what happens when life springs where the barren land found itself?

Times are changing...

And she comes along...

Will I crash into her life?

I must keep the forest pure. Fairies still live within.

My road could cut right through.

My will could bend the trees.

I must trend carefully through this forest,

Else caught between the branches or lost in the bushes I could easily find myself.

Explore carefully, adventurer, your fate still lies in your hands.

Falling

2010-05-26T23:08:00.003-06:00

I'm rushing in
Running away towards the center.

Sometimes too fast,
Sometimes too slow.

Don't be fooled by your emotions.

She can be more than meets the eye.
Uncertainty, unknown.

You just cannot ignore the call, can't you?
Not today...

Survival, with honor...

2010-05-19T13:33:00.000-06:00

"Survival, with honor, that outmoded and all-important word, is as difficult as ever and as all-important to a writer. Those who do not last are always more beloved since no one has to see them in their long, dull, unrelenting, no-quarter-given-and-no-quarter-received, fights that they make to do something as they believe it should be done before they die. Those who die or quit early and easy and with every good reason are preferred because they are understandable and human. Failure and well-disguised cowardice are more human and more beloved."

-Ernest Hemingway

Courage and Forward

2010-05-03T23:12:00.005-06:00

Amongst the shadows covering the land
Unaffected by the curse worn,

The warrior walks a path which cannot be undone.
Dusk darkens the day...

Spiral sparrow takes me places where thou shoulds't go, I'm afraid.
But hear there thy spades of wonder. Hearts of yonder.

See force without fate approach under sky, alas!
Immortal is the day and so silent is the night.

Blue moons which sparkle, delve deeper into thy castle.
Delve deeper into this night.

Go forward blindly without guide. Go, strive!
We shall see a better day tomorrow... without doubt.

The Serpent's Law

2010-04-24T23:00:00.004-06:00

I am but the reflections of those who see me...
Or I am not?
They see that which I cannot,
That which could be, or that which could be not.

For they glace upon more than what I can tell.
And say more than what they should.

Yes... I still recall the shadows of my lineage.
The greatness that it holds.
I cannot ignore the truth it foretold.

But... I believe in bonds of blood,
In truths abstract to the heart.
Incoherent to the ear,
Yet obvious to the soul.

In truth be told I must say,
I am bound for nothing more than my own illusion.
And if there are those who wish cheer at it, they are welcome.
For there will always be those who wish see it end.

Laugh with me, lend me an ear and hear a tale,
I'll draw a smile and see you stare.
Where to? I dare not comment.

I am but the reflection of what I wish you to see.
Of the story my heart wish be told.

It is the story of a tiger's fury,
It is the story of a dragon's claw,
Lived... by the serpent's law.

Embrace yourself, the journey is still half's way.

Speak Your Mind

2010-04-18T08:22:00.003-06:00

I am he who would so retire from this affair.

Even though 'tis not the glamour I would suppose, but it is the reason that provokes.

Say nay and be on your way. Stop breathing down my back and speak your peace.

Give shallow waters to those who cannot swim.

But the open sea, that, was always there for me.

Stride... make your road, fall upon your face and eat your words.

I will not listen, and I wish I would not care more.

It is my burden, you are my maker. Alas, you've become nothing less than a child once again.

And I?

I lie here tempering my troubled soul, one which needs so much more work...

I Would be The One

2010-04-01T17:50:00.005-06:00

Windows... doors... pathways and archways...
They all lead away from the place I was made.
They ring bells that do not call this name.
Not this life.

Yet this...
Alas... this ignites the vast unknown ablaze.
This darkness where I try hiding!

Thoughtless, without hesitation...
A chance for instinctive drive.

Yes... that path feared to trend... but The Path I choose to follow.
Do not deny my interest! I beg of you!
Will I spend forever here and not be satisfied?

Patience, Discipline,
I call upon you once more.
Grant me peace...

The Lost and The Dead

2010-03-31T22:25:00.002-06:00

"...I will not fall, I will not fade...

...Show me where forever dies...

...All is lost again, but I'm not giving in...

...I will not bow, I will not break...

...I will take your breath away..."

- Breaking Benjamin

Extract - The Road Not Taken

2010-03-10T18:55:00.002-06:00

"I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference." - Robert Frost

Die with me...

2010-02-27T17:15:00.003-06:00

I'd change this sadness for anger without a thought.
For I can deal with the anger...
For I can set anger into good use...
But not this sadness...

Not the sadness I feel...
Your eyes broke my heart.
Your face drew across my conscience
A line I'm not sure we can surpass.

How to say I love you,
Without hurting you still...

I seem to be the living reminder of your sorrows.
I've been here before.
I've seen this dance die out.

My roses wither slowly...
I keep them through their dying days...
But they die here... with me...

Morning Sun

2010-02-26T22:45:00.001-06:00

How do you rate the morning sun
It’s just too heavy for me
and all I wanted was the world
if you were the star let in the sun
Don’t go wasting your time
Cause there is no finish line
And you don’t see anything,
Not even love not anything,
The night can take the man from you
A sense of wonder overdue
The morning brings a mystery
The evening makes it history
Who am I to rate the morning sun?

...Robbie Williams

Flashbacks

2010-02-24T12:28:00.002-06:00

How could I know.
That such gem lied under my wing.
She claims my shadow,
But not my calling.

What an interesting one she is.
Fair in so many ways,
Strong in matters that count.

Naive... scared...
Yet tough as mountain's will.
Offers made, not taken, not denied.

"This is what I am.
But I still feel.
I still dream".

You came late? I think not.
My path will lead me somewhere.
Where? I am not certain.
But this wheel cannot be stopped now.

Welcome to the Club

2010-01-07T20:53:00.005-06:00

You see again with reborn eyes.
Where you died, you cannot recall.
But where you were born you can tell it was your home.

There are waves that pass us by,
There are times where sound comes so thin. Memories so blushed, so sweet.
Yet few are times when you die in silence with such imagery.

Death, rebirth.

I died in solitude, confined to a room of dark corners.

Black, white.

Awoken somewhere in the middle of covers.
Immersed between soft shadows and dim rays that called for open eyes.

You knew it then...

Welcome back to the club, my friend.

There and Back Again

2009-12-09T03:10:00.004-06:00

The water runs fast.
The rivers reach the oceans.
The rain falls earthbound.

Towards the stars my wishes go past.
Far beyond sight.
Closely near oblivion.

Arise a new moon,
A new sight,
The beginning of my end.

The race is long,
And fear is the only enemy.
In the end, it's only a race against yourself.

New teachings, new wisdom.
The ocean tide follows the moon
Wherever it goes.

Bringing new thoughts from new places,
Carrying burdens unknown to all.
Knowing paths that few would choose as their own.

The traveler arrives to a home he barely recognizes after so long.

The Shadow of Change

2009-10-12T14:00:00.004-06:00

Something is calling me East...
Be it a feast of friends or a giant's wish.
I could care less.

It is not wise to answer every call.
It is not wise.

Yet, here I go.
Shadows following my every path.

My shadow. Change is coming through my shadow.

Please leave a light on... for me.

I will return.

Dark Plans

2009-10-11T18:58:00.006-06:00

Seven seasons undone for treason...
Now the group united once more under one sole reason!
Who would have thought!?

Yet, bitter is the taste to our lips alone, without warmth.
No sweeter than thy candy blow and never seen before that rising glow.
Choose thy words with summons in mind, focused simply with delight.

There are shadows that cannot be seen, greater even than those which Suns can make.
Drowning in thy safeness...

Call me an angel, forth into this world.
Shine down upon my shadow, there are still lessons to be learned.

To pick up the acceptance of your words,
It comes to be pathetic as the existence that drives you.

Nevertheless, I still slumber, I still await my time.
When us all part ways, when us all venture off.

I cannot wait.

In the meantime... fear the unknown, and be a mere mortal...
Take up those lies and truths to heart,
Striving to reach new heights.

There are paths I follow... the path no one takes...
Where right and wrong collide into the core of oneself...

I must go places few dare reach... to find the essence of endless time.

Sadly I can only take with me those who wish follow.
Alas, they all know the risk!

Darkness stops us not... it simply covers our tracks.

Prepare... the night is upon us.

Morning Thoughts

2009-10-09T06:34:00.002-06:00

Who are you?

Where do you run to?

I want to know about these strangers like me...

Fink Thoughts

2009-09-28T22:55:00.004-06:00

"The things that keep us apart, keep me alive
And the things that keep me alive, keep me alone

I didn't notice anything different
I didn't even notice"

- Fink, 'This is the thing'

Sometimes it Seems it Follows me Home

2009-09-27T08:00:00.004-06:00

Sometimes, yet not always,
It creeps behind me as I walk past my door.

Unusual, yet expected,
It shadows in the corner speaking in between each thought.

I can see it, I can feel it.

I've been accused of manipulation.
I've been accused of greed.
It's not the first time.

Why does my confidence portray such behavior?
Haven't I made it clear that what I aim for is my tribal need?

You are not the first, and surely not the last.

Accursed it follows me home.
Unable to lose the trail for this unwanted actor in my scene.

Faithless to see it go away.

Drop the curtain, end the act?
Why?

In the end I will remain exactly where I stand now.
But I least, I will know I tried.

Beautiful and Untouchable

2009-09-24T20:11:00.002-06:00

Today I lit up a candle in your name...

Beautiful and untouchable.

How come my own will
is the one that detains me
from bringing forth my passion for you?

For you...

Beautiful and untouchable.

Farewell

2009-08-26T12:05:00.003-06:00

And the night fell upon our sunset...
The heat of day was washed away with each breath...
I had been here before, I had seen this in the past...

No more misfortunes, no more unwanted turns.
The end would be swift and painless.
A knife in plain view.

Your wings broken, my will unbent,
Such sorrow shared with passion.

Sometimes goodbye is a second chance,
Sometimes the end is the beginning.

Just make sure you keep it straight,
Set your North where it should be.
Think twice, don't hesitate, be smart.

I won't be there no more...
I won't hear your thoughts no more...

This time, I ride my own road...

Alone.

Catch a Breeze

2009-07-25T22:23:00.003-06:00

Where lies what sea may hold?
If we follow the wind in a rush?

Never the contradiction fairly will unfold
Any plans hidden behind the bush.

Murdered beside the killer.
Speculating on the footprints of a cat

Who left forgotten his whisker
Somewhere back in the pull and push.

Damn will against will,
Damn your search for emotion.

Just like scrapping the door to be fed
Anything better than solitude.

Make haste, raise sails.
I hear a purr welcoming the wind.

Salvation Tree

2009-05-17T20:18:00.002-06:00

I marked the tree which saved you.

But not like you marked the tree that day.

It's trunk stopped your momentum.

It's size caught your soul.

Alas, your new life began with that bark!

And Death was left behind as you walked away unscratched.

Bless these memories that haunt you.

These flashbacks will always remain.

For that tree gave you something, that you will never forget...

The chance to die another day.

My Firefly

2009-03-11T10:52:00.004-06:00

Foreign days with sunless sunsets,
Oh pity, the sunrises too early to catch.

Eternal waves dance to the rhythm of the spirals,
Traces left behind by your butterflies...

The only joy in watching the tainted sky turn black,
Is knowing you will dance tonight...

My firefly...

Pace yourself, the beats come one after the other,
And yet the melody never ends.
Flowers and circles race past my eyes,
Your grace signed with a smile...

Black dressing, pale skin, burning lights...
It is the fire that runs through the night.

A dark grin masked by wanton innocence.

A kiss from a firefly...

How Did You Know

2009-02-12T21:17:00.005-06:00

Did you know that I still remember?
Did you know that I can't forget?
Did you know...
Did you know...

How far back can fear go...
How lonely can one fall...
How empty this room fells...
How empty...

Did you know you have no name?
Did you know I can't recall?
Did you know...
Did you know...

How easy I fool myself...
How straight is the way to hell...
How slow minutes crawl...
How slow...
How slow...

Just Open Your Eyes

2008-12-22T20:48:00.007-06:00

Things that can't be, should not be.

Expectation can derive from so much,
And hatred but a step away.

However, no fault can one have in dreaming.
No sense of loss either.

Success nor goals can quantify your will,
For their eyes will see nothing but what they are told to see.

Do not try to name it.
Do not try to earn it.

Things that can't be, should not be.

Even as lies flow from one mouth to another,
The intention transformed from higher,
Lacks the honest and faithful reason.
And this...
Cannot be ignored.

I shall not fight against it.
I will not break my will against it.
But this will take no more here on.
The wind breaks the tree when it's ready to die,
Not before.

Things that can't be, should not be.

Knowing is more than enough for me.
So enjoy your vastness and all glory that comes with it.
As the path to the spotlight is not the one you foretell.
Striving for your recognition has come to an end.

I have grown as much as I could here.
This box fits me no more.

Not the first, nor the last.

Things that can't be...
Simply...
Should not be.

Down with the Flow

2008-12-15T10:11:00.002-06:00

Where would such tears go,
If not down river
Where souls end up?

Few are the days I've not tried.
But restless torments break easily.
My road should not deviate...

If for any reason but it's own.

So flow down.
And then...
Rise.

Mining for Dreams

2008-10-27T00:23:00.005-06:00

Certainty declared in your face
of how the final act shall begin.

Relative is the theory:
Pain and thought.

For what could become the beginning
Is now the end.

You brought so much into this path,
And even saw the breaking that would cause.

Who could had been more wrong,
The miner or the mine?

Fool's gold will always shine,
So I leave you to dream alone.

Perplexed to what had happened.
Anxious of what went wrong.

It was that story I created...
With no intention but to adore.

In that story I abandoned...
With no intention to uphold.

At least you'll have your gold.
At least you'll get the memory.

But as far as it goes,
The pick is broken and the cart is gone.

The old miner is no more.

Fell into a Conversation

2008-09-16T20:57:00.002-06:00

It's been a long day,
For no shine through my window came.

Deep inside this hollow shell...
No wanton rest laid.

I am the tallest of the hive,
But I feel not over the wall which I must climb.

Truth be told, there is much to cover...
There is much to shoulder...

Harmonics

2008-07-08T00:20:00.000-06:00

And I will play,
Even after death.
Let my corpse be buried
And my notes...

They shall remain.

A Thought

2008-05-18T09:35:00.004-06:00

Every dark hour has a reason

Understanding is our choice
Accepting is our challenge

Angel Fire

2008-05-15T22:05:00.004-06:00

Have you ever believed you met an angel?
It was something just like that...
But it was a devil.

As a matter of fact, it was several devils.

This is that story...

Assaulted by promises of good time past,
Something no mortal can deny,
We followed the tail of an undetermined clan.
And yes, more than one easily got dragged.

Eaten, bitten and weakened,
The night drained away our sorrows.
Transformed into what the embrace of darkness wished,
We stalked the shadows, we danced the rhythms.
But most importantly, we drank our echoes.

Now we hold another truth.
One so different from the first.

Just like when you meet that damned angel,
Who turned out to be nothing but a sweet devil.

Walls of Time and Red Wounds

2008-04-23T00:41:00.004-06:00

To break through this wall,
Every try, every breath,
Broken glare by glare.

Damned indifferent stare, looking down.

Doing that which breaks the most.
Doing that which breaks the host.

Think should tell the truth,
Far less painful from this side.
Shadowed mercy, never thanked for.

No.
No demon could deny.
It's sakki that flows,
The sense that runs.

Living cursed with your presence.
It will be my burden to bear.

No easy way to explain,
To undo the believes laid on.
The wait fell down chasing love.

Crashing violently...
Into my life...
Out of my life...

Now it's moving me along,
Fading away the shade of lost kingdoms.

What I want and what can happen
Will not be the same.
So acceptance is the only choice time will bring.

Time and time.
More time.

When will the clock wake up,
And realize that it goes too fast for us all.

Never too fast to escape your look, though.
Never too slow to make it go away quick enough.

Trapped between times of time.

When will the clock wake up...
When will this wall fall down...

Only time knows...

No Hope Inside the Jar (Dancing Bones)

2008-04-22T21:28:00.006-06:00

Everyday again around the same old end.
Round and round walking, running, facing.

The outside seems so empty from within,
So square, so rigid.

But this jar is more than closed,
And no air seem come for most
Of those who venture share a glimpse.

So deny me, and this is where I end.

Inside the jar... inside the glass.

To see but not to touch or smell.
To hear but not to taste or care.

Inside the glass, inside the jar.

We go round the bottom.
Never ending.

Just like bottles.
Just like bones.
Just like bad old rum.

Rise Again

2008-04-01T09:14:00.004-06:00

How many times must one fall to understand,
Life has a way of driving even patient men wild...

So again I rise...

Hanging on to what I have,
For it is the only thing left I can do...

Ghosts of Days Past

2008-03-08T19:21:00.003-06:00

I know the landscape that I see
Growing up from one horizon to another...

They say love ain't fair,
'Cause I am feeling just fine.

So if the sun comes out this way
And you see it go the other,

Don't think this is not the truth.
I've been waiting, and won't stop.

Please believe me.

I just won't stop waiting.

RE: Letters to Elise

2008-03-05T10:37:00.003-06:00

I don’t have tears to hold back

I knew it from long ago

That this would never be

The dream you wanted.

I won’t say more, I’ll just smile,

Because we obviously need more than this

But there’s nothing else we can really do.

The chances were blown away when given

And now we stand in this aftermath with no meaning.

Hell, girl, neither of us wanted this,

But in the end, it’s all we have now.

Nothing to say.

Nothing to do.

Nothing left to stand for.

Who's Calling?

2008-02-16T13:27:00.009-06:00

Came inside today to find my solitude again
She is waiting day by day
Waiting for me to stay awake in this place
And fall asleep again

Why so sudden so dark
Calling me into the night

Give me just a little soul / To wrap again this dreams in hope
I can’t find the reason / To live this dream this day apart
Give me just one smile / And you’ll keep my heart tonight
Learn to breath away your sorrows / Tell me what went bad
Give me just some faith / And I’ll break away fear and pain
Waiting for the sunrise / My solitude awaits

Time in Letters

2007-12-28T10:52:00.001-06:00

Short months soon become a short year.

And quite ironically,
That which you seek was found.
Not as expected, but regardless of fate,
It is what you wanted all along.

Now claim your debt, time.
Show your vastness to all.
You never end, don't you?

There is no way to stop you, to keep you right where I want.
Would you lie if I asked?
Or better yet, would I even dare ask?

Break me a second like June states midyear.
Give me a reason to repay tenfold your presents.
Coming stages will not be the same,
Without the time I knew...
Where time again I see through you and grasp nothing of your sense...

Fake me an hour like lunchtime forgotten.
Tell me why there is no joy when keeping your tracks.
Tomorrow will not be the same,
Without the time I knew...
Where time again I see through you and fail to see your purpose...

Take away a year like imprisonment steals life.
What determination you hold when trying to escape?
My cell will not be the same,
Without the time I knew...
Where time again I see through you and forget to take note...

Time, when did you pass by?

Uncertainties

2007-12-08T21:25:00.002-06:00

If I could, I would tell you a secret,
If I could, I would show my shadows,
If I could, I would ask you of your demons,
If I could, I would do much...

I wonder what is it that binds me today?
For I know the truths that speed you.
And yet I am unaware of the truths that slow me.
Supervising an affair, never the goal.

Plans and roads to take, of which I asked...
None were replied.
I did not understand...
You wish to invest into a greater love...
Placed so much in the line without reason...

Asking too much in so little time...
Alas, you are brave one...
Yet, I need to see more... I need to feel more...

Now I know... After time has passed...
And yet you failed to notice...
Now you know... After all this time...
You closed the doors on your own...

Sunflower

2007-11-24T18:58:00.002-06:00

Silently waiting... stalking with glances...
Undressing with thoughts...

'Anatomy', she said, 'is a passion of mine'.

Hungry lioness, reminds me of times forgotten.
When the early knife still was sharp
To unflesh the gallows in every gap.

Alas, but she comes with demons of her own!

Should she know the shadows that provoke me,
Or the devils that implore me...

She is cursed just like I...
But still her wounds go deeper than just the heart,
And yet her fear is reluctant of acknowledgment.

Will she ever see, will she ever know...
I wonder... oh yes... I wonder...

Her Story

2007-11-24T18:48:00.001-06:00

Simply said:
There are no words I could offer.
No explanation that would comply.

She made up her mind...
She made up her truth...
Her fears rendered the reality she so much despised.

There is no true bond when fear is met
And repetition inevitably kills it all.

Just like oceans break the stone...

Just like wounds bleed undone...

She made up her story...
She made up her reasons...
Her fears rendered the thoughts that I portrayed.

There was no reason to salvage it
Even if hope still remained.

Just like a broken sword...

Just like a shattered hope...

Simply said:
There are none...

Gray

2007-11-16T01:02:00.001-06:00

There are issues left behind, used matches.

Shift from white to black,
No gray in the middle, please.

My soul seems darker than before.
At least it matches, it figures.

Waiting is patience and thought:
True for truth-seekers.

An almost empty box.
Almost empty.

But one match is needed only... to light it all in flames...
And send the gray shadows away...

When They Leave

2007-11-02T08:22:00.000-06:00

Deception for the faithful,
I steer a ship with no bearings.
If a friend's calling one can't take,
Escaping is the only mean of running.

For the deeper in the trace I fall,
The easier it lingers on my soul.
And, alas, my soul cannot be fooled,
Be it by others or myself,
When the calling was not my own.

Then dealing with my darkness,
I hear truths of sadness...
No loss, I say. For me, at least.

Yet the air that comes with each breath,
The toxins that enter here and there.
They shout... they proclaim...
Alas, today is simply another day...

But when your friends can't see the day,
And shadow down the unfitting path,
There are no words one can share
Which will deny the haunting they cry.

I hear their words, but can't relate.
The punishment was not theirs,
And the release is the truth we all will face.

Alas, I am numbed... I am numbed.

Life in a Box

2007-10-30T22:42:00.000-06:00

We all seem to treat life differently,
And thus we all treat death differently.

I wonder why sadness is used
For moments such as these.

Why feel that that something was taken away?
If that person was not ours...

Am I cold? Or have I numbed my senses?

I feel no loss, but I feel the loss others feel.
That I cannot help.

And strangely enough, that is the only pain I can sense.

Still there are those who see the same as I,
Have seen less than I,
And will know less than I.

They cry... they suffer... yet I remain untouched.

I've been in this spot before...

Do I not see something they do?

I wonder why... I wonder if I'm holding something without knowing...

Not knowing, not feeling, not seeing...

I'm just sitting here inside my box...

Endlessly

2007-09-03T00:55:00.000-06:00

There's a part of me you'll never know
The only thing I'll never show

Hopelessly I'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly I'll give you everything
But I won't give you up
I won't let you down
And I won't leave you falling
If the moment ever comes

It's plain to see it's trying to speak
Cherished dreams forever asleep
Hopelessly I'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly I'll give you everything
But I won't give you up
I won't let you down
And I won't leave you falling
If the moment ever comes

Hopelessly I'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly I'll give you everything
But I won't give you up
I won't let you down
And I won't leave you falling
But the moment never comes

- Muse

Milestone Zero

2007-08-25T17:46:00.001-06:00

We shared a thought
With no sun shining through

We danced to shadows
That said we never could

We always worked in unison

I set the knife in motion
And she plunged it deep

Deep within
Darkening me
Blinding

It's confusing not being able to measure
But knowing that something was lost

It's painful not being able to stop the flow
And see how the pieces are set back to where they started
Wondering what truly was lost when put back

Back to Milestone Zero

Where we had been so long ago
Where all began

One Step

2007-08-09T01:07:00.000-06:00

One step...
Still too scared to take a second...

The sight follows when I'm alone.

I try to call, but I hear no answer.
Now I wonder how lost I've become.

One step...
Still too dark to see...

Visions and memories of broken dreams.

A path yonder lies surrounded with shadows.
There is only one way to find out where it leads.

One step...
Something inside still won't move...

The passing breeze leaves me behind.

This darkness is not my homeland.
This silence is not my own.

One step...
It's all that I need...

Towards the End of the Sea

2007-07-01T18:19:00.000-06:00

If while night sailing...

The Moon comes shining...

Find no reason to feel sadness...

If while soul dreaming...

The End comes wanting...

Warm air will surely blow madness...

If while joy waiting...

Fate grants you flavoured thrilling...

You are undoubtly meant to break the stress...

And sail away,

Towards the Ends of the Sea.

Spiral Draw

2007-06-30T19:17:00.000-06:00

Grab a pen and place the rhythm,

Words will flow into the hurts of the past
To let the grace be shown to all.

This is the place where throughts betray
And yet escape from it's inner cage.

Come pray with me.
There's so much healing to do.

A world contain between voice and drum,
Changing to the certain light of cruel findings.

Praise the spiral revolution that springs unraveling phrases into armony!

Come play with me.
There's so much destruction to perform.

Bow and be grateful.
My words behold your mark.

Fate

2007-06-06T15:11:00.000-06:00

"I sense you so close,
But I can't touch you even if I reach out.
But even if I can't reach,
There are things that remain in my heart, right?

We lived at the same time and saw the same things.
As long as we remember that,
We can believe that we are one even if we are far apart.

I'll keep running, for the moment.
Because I should reach what I seek if I keep running."

- Shirou

The 25th Hour

2007-06-06T00:41:00.000-06:00

Sound fondly flows down below underneath the glow,
Only shadows within shadows of running rocks.

Tic goes the clock, the hour to reborn had come.
This is the night where the heartbeat echoes.

One step from the edge, one foot from the grave.
The wave comes forth and the jump is made.

To fall so gracefully with outstretched arms.
To down take with force such a spec of trust
And separate a damned body...

...from a free soul.

Alas, a death foretold!

But still below no secret bestowed,
No grave filled and no tear spilled...
Only curse suppressed and rage undone...

Fake ends make Death seem less
When embracing all as one's own.

Free falling, free choice...

I can only say,
I took them as my own.

He Who Sits Beside

2007-05-09T01:39:00.000-06:00

He is not human... That was a choice made by himself alone.
He has no heart... That was a choice he forged with deep wounds.
He cannot feel... That was a choice he took for his own.
He cannot die... That was a curse he won with his youth.
He broke all trust... That was a bond he did not ask.
He crushed your damned soul... Without feeling remorse.

He knew all along... He knew all along...
That the shadow was emerging from his own...

Silence... it is until now you realise...

Humanity... is for the humans...
Judgment... is for the gods...
And Freewill... is for the taking...

Songs for the Living

2007-05-05T13:11:00.000-06:00

The drums had begun the rhythm that cannot be undone.
Hear the echo, hear the song, hear the image then shown.

Alas the four play at last!

Follow the spirit into the netherworld,
Into the shadow from where darkness dwells...

They play for the morning's dawn,
They play until the sun is born...

Alas the four play at last!

Flowing...
Running...
Showing...

The crescent beating subsides,
For minutes to pass hours, for hours to pass minutes...
Darkness dwells amongst the chords of hellish delight...

Alas the four play at last!

Hear me a word of reason...
Just one word...
One word...

One word! To recall while I sleep...
To remember when I meet...

Alas the four play at last!

Spiders and Snakes

2007-04-01T22:49:00.000-06:00

Amazed and wondering the inside soul,
Heavy black gloves came close.

A tickle down my spine,
A numbing bewildered smoke!

Shadows passing by, ashes arising every step.

Like the hunter seeking prey,
Face to face they met.

Pondering spirits they were,
Thundering glances they exchanged.

But mere words were left only
And the intension was killed instead of prey.

There was a reason.
There was my resolution.
There was my choice.

- Crazy World 2007

Restless Nights, Building Dreams in the Dark

2007-03-26T01:25:00.000-06:00

I watch her work the stairway
That naked feature shining down on her...
It feels she's so far away
Watching me just as I watch her...

Restless nights, building dreams in the dark.

Blood stained fingers tend to create
Trusted hopes that linger without fear...

I could speak my mind to steal her glance
Or invoke a lion of dreamlike thought,
Just to look deep within her eye once
And show the prey that had been caught.

Restless nights, build me dreams in the dark.

Heaven Came Upon Us

2007-03-14T02:22:00.000-06:00

Stranded, the tide was moving in.
Lifted the covers overhead
And away the new sun was rising.

The window had been opened.
The fire had long been burning.
The sand was clear... for now.

Heaven brought down upon us,
Just to dream of the afterlife
While we were awake.

Oh, guardian of the fiery wood
Saluting the star painted sky.
Play us a song to ease the madness.

To recall the earthly night
Would be to bring the sweet delight,
That places pure of devilish fright

Still echo with silence...

Throughout the night.

- Esterillos March 2007 -

Beating Figures

2007-02-13T01:07:00.000-06:00

She spoke in words of longing,
Did I answered in phrases of joy?
It was simply heartbeats flowing...

I cannot recall the day I felt,
You could not remember either...
Frozen iron ready to hammer and smelt.

You can now hear deep within the gorge:
Work it, I say, Master smith!
Bring together these dreams and forge!

Drumming... the echo goes forth running...
Up the river, down the hills,
Yet aforegoing to spend the silver.

So typical to those forgetful,
In their human nature,
To avoid remembering, to free their pores,
From those bad old deals, we all tend to come pay.

Did she speak words of longing?
I answered with phrases of gold...
They were worlds colliding.

One another into a heightened other.
She spoke, I walked...

I listened...
She followed...

A Shame No Quote

2007-02-12T02:28:00.000-06:00

Today the voice was heard...
It came when the thought was unleashed.

Creative destruction at work.

For there is an art in picturing,
In planning...
In knowing, what can be done.

Something must have heard the thought...

Alas, so deaf I am... so ignorant...
Withdrew the focus as it spoke...

Never will I know the message.
Never will I know the means.

The moment passed without a quote to stand upon.

Would You Ever Step Aside

2007-02-11T22:39:00.000-06:00

If you could shift the tides...

If you could make the river run backwards...

If you could stop the rain from falling...

Would you ever step aside,

And let it all flow?

Thoughts (The Flow)

2007-02-06T00:23:00.000-06:00

Won't stop,
The flow continues.

Thoughts betray,
Angels wither.

Hostile acts scar:

Marks for the brave,
Punishment for the penitent,
Rage for the vengeful.

- Tears can Tear Tissue -

Wait and Listen

2007-02-06T00:10:00.000-06:00

"Listening in the presence of the Horizon,
No demon speaks or walks..."

After all...
I am the riddles of a shaken mind.

Those, which sometimes you hear.
Whispers near the river, flowing constantly.

Searching word by word a way to sea...

Wanting calmly the solitude of the shore,
The dancing grace of sandy waves.

Listen to the coming of the tide...

Bringing news it always tells of stories
From distant lands...

Oh riddles of color-mind,
What next shall you spring to life?

Of Hearts and Tides

2007-01-29T01:18:00.000-06:00

She came to me when I was there already.
She left, and I was then alone.
She came again to keep a promise.
She was there again to live the dream.
She finally came to see the truth...
Now... she waits.

We Live to Drink Water

2006-12-20T23:59:00.000-06:00

Dissolving through the mist of my dreams,
I came to banish my exile...
This was the word:

"In the middle of the river there is a boat.
Uncharted lights make it easier to the Free Lands,
Whenever truth comes friendly, as it should.
Rejoice in the sense that maybe you can still feel it,
That transparent darkness in which you float.
For in it's absence, how would you know?"

Embrace the limit of these two bands.
Again will prevail the center force -
The balanced rhythm of gentle beatings.
Each breath, the flowing will then continues,
Sliding aside of many sleepers; Dreaming.
All this, bordering the shores of distance lands.
Unknown to you
Or me.

When did you remember such a searching thrill?
Of truth be told and unlocking reason?
How delicate should this plated present be bestowed?

Behold...

Take this from the heavy vaults of well kept secrecy,
And share the reasons why the river still flows serene.

Come drink from my glass...
This water is for you
And me.

After Ten Nights of Dreaming

2006-12-18T00:29:00.000-06:00

"You got to be stone.
You got to take the blow.
You got to let yourself know.

You got to.

When a thousand phrases
Get to mean nothing
The trust gets broken
Never to reopen

I have no reason
To feel sympathy
As cruel as you were
Your voice I won't forget.

When a thousand phrases
Get to mean nothing
The trust simply gets broken
Never to long again.

So you...
You..

You are to blame for this disgrace
You alone have fallen long from grace
What was left unspoken
Came to be my silent torment
You seemed to have never asked yourself

Why I'm chasing you behind stars...
Why I am dreaming lost in your eyes..."

- Friend, your sorrow I felt -

Hide from Me

2006-12-18T00:28:00.000-06:00

And who I'm I to doubt a dream,
If no difference will it make.

My voice cannot tell what take
And what leave untouched.

So who I'm I to break a will,
As if it were my choice.

Eventually I'll learn to feel
Between that simple noise
And that line to follow.

But today, I must confess...
I don't know who I was...

Of Chaos and Hope

2006-12-17T23:35:00.001-06:00

...Hear how my heart feeds...
...No innocence is for certain...
...Life can tell you that...

...It's your wound that one that bleeds...
...I never decided to climb the mountain...
...And I'm happy leaving it just like that...

What do you know, that I may want to know?
Ask me what warmth can I feel?
Up there, only the icy wind can blow.

Tell me what I want to hear...
Is that how it goes?

Without a returning sense of the landscape
How can I let you run loose...
Oh sweet emotion, where to you wish take me?

Bending the sound to fill the silence
I heard your voice,
It wasn't a coincidence and it wasn't fate either...

The excitement these news bring I can't deny,
But hope becomes less cheap each day...

Spawn of my own,
Look at the chaos that you brought upon the land!
Look how the land embraces you!
They adore you...
They claim you as their own...
But have they ever stopped to question,
Where do you come from?

I guess that's why they call it hope...
I guess that's why...
They call it hope...

Soon

2006-12-07T12:08:00.000-06:00

Cough
I breathe
Cry
She breathes

Now days will be measured
With years progressing

And this green fur that
Coats my body -
Imprisons my blood
Imprisons my soul

It will leave soon
I will live soon
Broken down inside
Flowing down each stride

Everyday brings it closer
A moment of clarity
A sight to take note of

Soon

Dance 'Round the Fire

2006-12-03T17:50:00.000-06:00

Shall it fill me up with such grace
For a few days
To see your face...

Dance,
"Put the fire! All around!"
Let it burn,
Bring the flame.

Morning lights every face
In every sense
Every pace...

Come down, no disgrace
No more hiding
In this place

Wash me clean in one phrase
Waving waters
Sins ablaze!

Dance,
Let the lake run dry
Fill me up 'til I cap
Like watered wet white sand.

To the shore...
To the sea...
Into that great dream...

When The Tune Cannot Be Heard

2006-11-13T03:14:00.000-06:00

Bone stiff weariness strikes me down,
On to the floor...
On to the cold wood...
The tune can still be heard,
Chords still ringing in my head.

How fast one seems to catch the idea,
And so slow it manages to slip away.
If ever...

Holding past death feeling somewhat empty?
Should it be another who drinks this water
And not the thirst of injured tongue...

Oh, please just laugh with me.
Let me know it's still within the limits of reason.
That the honest makes nothing in a dishonest realm.
And that even the best can't win all.

One hour, one minute... turn around, one second now.
It's gone. Like the past twenty years.
Where did it go... the rhythm...
I can still hear it, but I can't see it.

It's not the question of where we are going,
But more striking the absence of the horizon.
North sound comes forth.
Lend me an ear quick!
And listen how my knees fall to the ground.

Somebody dig this hole for now...
I cannot finish my grave tonight.
Tomorrow maybe...
When the rest come awake,
Maybe then I'll meet the slumber.

But no musician can tell the tale
As no poet can play the tune.
Let me sleep for tonight...
Let me dream for a moment.

Alas, I can still hear the music in the air.