Aasimar

Fly me to nowhere... I've never been there.
I promise I'll be back one day.

There comes times when I wish I'd be no more.
There are hours, there are days.

And yet you wish me be mortal.
Ordinary amongst those who roams the lands.

Touched by an angel.
Brought to be more than I wanted, into the light.
Redeemed of my sins.
Dispersed like ashes in the sea.

That's where you'll find me...
At the sea...

Fingers to toes...
Death releases us all.

I am being.
World rotating or world crashed down.
We all fall down the same vastness.

Can I leave it all behind?
Just for a little while... yet kept this human cover...

No one can hear me... No one can see me...
Lost and found...

Swim until you drown. Love until you hate.
You've got my trust and fears...

It's all I know...

Or Maybe I'm Just Blind

"There's another world inside of me
That you may never see
There're secrets in this life
That I can't hide
Somewhere in this darkness
There's a light that I can't find
Maybe it's too far away...
Or maybe I'm just blind...
Or maybe I'm just blind..."

3 Doors Down - When I'm Gone

Whether I’m Right or Wrong

I for certain don't know... so you doubt me.
Claiming I will break in woe when this love takes its fee.

You seem so certain, as if you will be the one who pulls upon me the curtain.
Yet you are not even sure if your own road is that pure...

I see you fly with a broken wing as your expectation is just too great.
You know not what your destination will bring nor if your good path is that but straight.

Tell me now... who has the wisdom or knowledge?
For certainly not those who've gone to college...
Who can tell you what you believe is a lie? No one is perfect... we are all dry.

But you know this...
And you've learned to accept it.
Mistakes will come and you will miss...
Disappointment will trouble you, and you'll have to admit.

Don't justify me.
Don't disappoint me.
Don't judge me.

But most importantly,
Don't wait for me.

Paths diverge in the forest,
And I hope... to see you on the other side.

Reenactment

Such Chaos,
Such Beauty.

A wave in the ocean,
Current traveling South.

I am missing the thrill.
I am staying behind.

How far...
How long...

There are choices that should not be undone.

Go tell me the future I could have had,
Go on...

Bring forth your experienced wise touch,
Add that to a life, not even it's owner understands.

Can you tell me which path is best?
If so, I'm afraid I've chosen to not heed your words.

You see... I am lost.
I still seek purpose.

I am student in life.
Learning blow by blow.

But come on,
Dispense your advice...

I will be patient, I promise.
And I will take whatever little part of your nostalgic past you can spare...

As my own.

Rain on the West

In the days of muse breaks

We have to hang on tight...

It seems the rain won't go away.
The clouds darken our days.

The rain prolongs our nights.

But in the end,
I must seek shelter,
From this place.

It spreads.

Taking a toll I cannot pay;
Burdening if I don't.

The choice is made.

The horizon does not show a sunrise,
At least not in these shores.
At least not yet.

She bids me take my place,
So I play my chances on my own...

I know what is the best.

Play my chances,
Aiding my cause.

Sometimes...
It disappoints.

Losing Something Precious

Sometimes,
Just sometimes...

It would seem I lose my mind.
For I cannot make sense of this world,
I cannot make choices without seeing the obvious.

Sometimes,
Just sometimes...

I am blocked of my conscience,
I am alone and confused.
Not knowing where to pull, where to push.

Sometimes,
Just sometimes...

You see me struggle.
But honestly, you really don't care.
Because in your world, it is only you.

Alas, two selfish souls collide.
And even love can't ease edges.
No care or tenderness can cure the pain caused.

You are what you are.
I am something that sometimes...
Just sometimes...

Spins without knowing what's going on.

I don't want to lose you.
So I must find the spinner.

I don't want to hurt you.
So I must stop the spinner.

I just want that sometimes...
In those times...

I end up where I'm suppose to be:
In your arms.

Who We Are

Here I lie in the middle, in the cross-fire of life.
Traveling the globe to learn the things you are to learn, or so they say.
I see life as it can be... I see life as it could be...
It is not life as it should be, though.

Not for me.
In the Heartlands. There... I belong.
My name is Nou One... from the Clan One.
I was born in the low lands of the axis of this world...

I am a mortal.
I can be killed in many ways.
Yet I have lived on... somehow...
There are others like me.

We are scattered across the realms... and we are few.
But we are out there...
Living... wandering... fulfilling the destinies we were meant to complete.
And carving our fate in the hearts of all who dare join in the cause.

We can be found in the rivers, in the mountains, in the cities, in the villages.
We are everywhere.
But you will only know who we are when your moment of final rest comes upon you.
When you recall all the memories of your life in a quick instant.

Then you will see the truth... and the one thing that marks us all in common.
Because all of us will have one moment. One second in your life.
One last thing we did with you.
The last thing you saw from all of us...

A smile.

In the brief summary. In that moment.
You will know: who we are.
What we meant,
And what we will be in that migrating part of you that will move on.
You may say again...

Fair journey, traveler.
Fair journey.

Western Summer

Awaiting for my ship to sail the sky.
I run this direction once again.
Smiling. Knowing what waits for me in my return.

So what is pondering in your dreams?
Where are you headed traveler?
On the road once again?

Are you escaping today?
Or returning tomorrow?
You left but yesterday...

Where do you wish to go...
Are you all you wished so far to be?
What else lies there...

What else...

And Now...

A few days from a new departure...
A few sunsets from the thrill of exploration...

An old fear strikes the hearts of men.
An old fear which constantly haunts.
An old fear soon to be released on this world.

Oh Earth Mother, why do you so burden your children?
Shall we keep on paying for the vile turns your life takes?

I will bring myself from the depths of any abyss.
I will bring my feet forward, with arms raised high.

Yet I cannot speak for my brothers...
Yet I cannot see in their hearts...
Yet I cannot say what happiness is for those who expect nothing...

And now...

Well... and now we wait...

Patiently, wisely...
An odyssey this is... an odyssey it will be...
One which I so unwillingly play...

French Proverb

"One meets his destiny often in the road he takes to avoid it."

And so I met her...

I Was About To Leave

I wasn't going to kill it,
That was certain...

But I needed some distance from it all.

I could not take the fact of being replaced so easily.

But aren't we all?

Replaceable...

One day, the next, or soon enough.
We cannot stay forever.

Will you stay until I fall asleep?
I don't want a replacement for you...
I'm so far into your story now...

Together...

I feel it.
I see it.

Easily.

I just wish they would think out loud.
And then we could all live in peace.

Sigh... I was about to leave when you simply said...

"I told him..."

So I stayed. So now I plan. So now I move forward.
Now... a different state from yesterday...

Another day will be tomorrow...
I want to see how far we can go if we play together.

If we play it right.

Three Rounds Later

The bell rang.

There was no knock out.
We both were still standing.

My expectations went down the river, I'm afraid.
There was no decisive blow...

Yet, not all had been lost.

A feeling laid there... still intact.
Still shining past the darkness.

I could not deny what I felt,
But my Will had been damaged.

Too many blows.
Even a resilient Will can feel pain.

As the moment paused...
The lights blinded my blurry sight.

I recounted the damage done.
It didn't look good. It didn't feel right.

Maybe the scorecard will bring good news.
Maybe the scorecard will never come.

Blood.

It is when you stop...
That you realize how bad you bleed.

I will need healing.
Time can grant me that.

Will I stay for the judges' call?
I don't think I need to.

I see them arguing amongst themselves.
Looks like they can't get it clear.

As I stood there waiting.
Losing hope of a final resolution...

It came to me...

I don't need a winner.
I didn't do this to win.

I did this to fight.
Because it was a worthy fight.

That was all I wanted.
The honour of doing something worthy.

To know that I still live.
To try to grasp that which is worth living for.

Maybe someday they'll get it together,
Maybe they'll find the answer.

Maybe she will get her thoughts together.

But not now, it seems. Not now.

I turned around, smiled and headed out.
I'll come back again and fight, I'm sure.

But for now, I need to rest.

Lost with a Pebble in My Shoe

A lost soul in search of redemption
For sins committed in a previous life
Of which I am not even aware of.

Bare open in truths beyond comprehension.
Where not even I can produce reason
To believe what fares so well, or so ill.

I can only stare, I can only follow.
I can only accept the fate tomorrow,
I'll see then what I can borrow.

Yet bring no expectation to my bed.
I will die before time.
Somewhere on the edge of the bestest of times...

Saga of Forgotten Ashes

Burning dreams provides smoke to cloud the senses.
Blinded from images of constant contemplation.
Always ready for the sacrifice... and the reward.

It comes from bringing joy, but should there be fear?
A smile which I cannot forget, but left behind.
Promised a soul piece, but today, death handed I have given you.

There is far more sorrow that the one portrayed.
There is far more tears that the ones described.
Alas, there is only one which knows the story.

From one day to the other,
From years past to new comings,
I still search... where I can stay...

Contradicting senses...

Unbinding Mysteries

Find yourself again in the same place.
Will this be the last? It's surely not the first.

My heart beats again.
Lively. Quickly.
Without remorse of my sins.

I just wonder...
The consequences of my actions.

Yet if I am but a traveler in her life?
Alas! At least I touched heart.
At least I brushed the core.

At least I know, I am beyond the realm of mortals' help.

She reminds me of valiant dreams.
She inspires that which I fear...

She...
Secretly...
Silently...

Unbinds my mysteries... one by one...

I Slept in the Forest Tonight

So what happens when life springs where the barren land found itself?

Times are changing...

And she comes along...

Will I crash into her life?

I must keep the forest pure. Fairies still live within.

My road could cut right through.

My will could bend the trees.

I must trend carefully through this forest,

Else caught between the branches or lost in the bushes I could easily find myself.

Explore carefully, adventurer, your fate still lies in your hands.

Falling

I'm rushing in
Running away towards the center.

Sometimes too fast,
Sometimes too slow.

Don't be fooled by your emotions.

She can be more than meets the eye.
Uncertainty, unknown.

You just cannot ignore the call, can't you?
Not today...

Survival, with honor...

"Survival, with honor, that outmoded and all-important word, is as difficult as ever and as all-important to a writer. Those who do not last are always more beloved since no one has to see them in their long, dull, unrelenting, no-quarter-given-and-no-quarter-received, fights that they make to do something as they believe it should be done before they die. Those who die or quit early and easy and with every good reason are preferred because they are understandable and human. Failure and well-disguised cowardice are more human and more beloved."

-Ernest Hemingway

Courage and Forward

Amongst the shadows covering the land
Unaffected by the curse worn,

The warrior walks a path which cannot be undone.
Dusk darkens the day...

Spiral sparrow takes me places where thou shoulds't go, I'm afraid.
But hear there thy spades of wonder. Hearts of yonder.

See force without fate approach under sky, alas!
Immortal is the day and so silent is the night.

Blue moons which sparkle, delve deeper into thy castle.
Delve deeper into this night.

Go forward blindly without guide. Go, strive!
We shall see a better day tomorrow... without doubt.

The Serpent's Law

I am but the reflections of those who see me...
Or I am not?
They see that which I cannot,
That which could be, or that which could be not.

For they glace upon more than what I can tell.
And say more than what they should.

Yes... I still recall the shadows of my lineage.
The greatness that it holds.
I cannot ignore the truth it foretold.

But... I believe in bonds of blood,
In truths abstract to the heart.
Incoherent to the ear,
Yet obvious to the soul.

In truth be told I must say,
I am bound for nothing more than my own illusion.
And if there are those who wish cheer at it, they are welcome.
For there will always be those who wish see it end.

Laugh with me, lend me an ear and hear a tale,
I'll draw a smile and see you stare.
Where to? I dare not comment.

I am but the reflection of what I wish you to see.
Of the story my heart wish be told.

It is the story of a tiger's fury,
It is the story of a dragon's claw,
Lived... by the serpent's law.

Embrace yourself, the journey is still half's way.

Speak Your Mind

I am he who would so retire from this affair.

Even though 'tis not the glamour I would suppose, but it is the reason that provokes.

Say nay and be on your way. Stop breathing down my back and speak your peace.

Give shallow waters to those who cannot swim.

But the open sea, that, was always there for me.

Stride... make your road, fall upon your face and eat your words.

I will not listen, and I wish I would not care more.

It is my burden, you are my maker. Alas, you've become nothing less than a child once again.

And I?

I lie here tempering my troubled soul, one which needs so much more work...

I Would be The One

Windows... doors... pathways and archways...
They all lead away from the place I was made.
They ring bells that do not call this name.
Not this life.

Yet this...
Alas... this ignites the vast unknown ablaze.
This darkness where I try hiding!

Thoughtless, without hesitation...
A chance for instinctive drive.

Yes... that path feared to trend... but The Path I choose to follow.
Do not deny my interest! I beg of you!
Will I spend forever here and not be satisfied?

Patience, Discipline,
I call upon you once more.
Grant me peace...

The Lost and The Dead

"...I will not fall, I will not fade...

...Show me where forever dies...

...All is lost again, but I'm not giving in...

...I will not bow, I will not break...

...I will take your breath away..."

- Breaking Benjamin

Extract - The Road Not Taken

"I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference." - Robert Frost

Die with me...

I'd change this sadness for anger without a thought.
For I can deal with the anger...
For I can set anger into good use...
But not this sadness...

Not the sadness I feel...
Your eyes broke my heart.
Your face drew across my conscience
A line I'm not sure we can surpass.

How to say I love you,
Without hurting you still...

I seem to be the living reminder of your sorrows.
I've been here before.
I've seen this dance die out.

My roses wither slowly...
I keep them through their dying days...
But they die here... with me...

Morning Sun

How do you rate the morning sun
It’s just too heavy for me
and all I wanted was the world
if you were the star let in the sun
Don’t go wasting your time
Cause there is no finish line
And you don’t see anything,
Not even love not anything,
The night can take the man from you
A sense of wonder overdue
The morning brings a mystery
The evening makes it history
Who am I to rate the morning sun?

...Robbie Williams

Flashbacks

How could I know.
That such gem lied under my wing.
She claims my shadow,
But not my calling.

What an interesting one she is.
Fair in so many ways,
Strong in matters that count.

Naive... scared...
Yet tough as mountain's will.
Offers made, not taken, not denied.

"This is what I am.
But I still feel.
I still dream".

You came late? I think not.
My path will lead me somewhere.
Where? I am not certain.
But this wheel cannot be stopped now.

Welcome to the Club

You see again with reborn eyes.
Where you died, you cannot recall.
But where you were born you can tell it was your home.

There are waves that pass us by,
There are times where sound comes so thin. Memories so blushed, so sweet.
Yet few are times when you die in silence with such imagery.

Death, rebirth.

I died in solitude, confined to a room of dark corners.

Black, white.

Awoken somewhere in the middle of covers.
Immersed between soft shadows and dim rays that called for open eyes.

You knew it then...

Welcome back to the club, my friend.