I Was About To Leave

I wasn't going to kill it,
That was certain...

But I needed some distance from it all.

I could not take the fact of being replaced so easily.

But aren't we all?

Replaceable...

One day, the next, or soon enough.
We cannot stay forever.

Will you stay until I fall asleep?
I don't want a replacement for you...
I'm so far into your story now...

Together...

I feel it.
I see it.

Easily.

I just wish they would think out loud.
And then we could all live in peace.

Sigh... I was about to leave when you simply said...

"I told him..."

So I stayed. So now I plan. So now I move forward.
Now... a different state from yesterday...

Another day will be tomorrow...
I want to see how far we can go if we play together.

If we play it right.

Three Rounds Later

The bell rang.

There was no knock out.
We both were still standing.

My expectations went down the river, I'm afraid.
There was no decisive blow...

Yet, not all had been lost.

A feeling laid there... still intact.
Still shining past the darkness.

I could not deny what I felt,
But my Will had been damaged.

Too many blows.
Even a resilient Will can feel pain.

As the moment paused...
The lights blinded my blurry sight.

I recounted the damage done.
It didn't look good. It didn't feel right.

Maybe the scorecard will bring good news.
Maybe the scorecard will never come.

Blood.

It is when you stop...
That you realize how bad you bleed.

I will need healing.
Time can grant me that.

Will I stay for the judges' call?
I don't think I need to.

I see them arguing amongst themselves.
Looks like they can't get it clear.

As I stood there waiting.
Losing hope of a final resolution...

It came to me...

I don't need a winner.
I didn't do this to win.

I did this to fight.
Because it was a worthy fight.

That was all I wanted.
The honour of doing something worthy.

To know that I still live.
To try to grasp that which is worth living for.

Maybe someday they'll get it together,
Maybe they'll find the answer.

Maybe she will get her thoughts together.

But not now, it seems. Not now.

I turned around, smiled and headed out.
I'll come back again and fight, I'm sure.

But for now, I need to rest.

Lost with a Pebble in My Shoe

A lost soul in search of redemption
For sins committed in a previous life
Of which I am not even aware of.

Bare open in truths beyond comprehension.
Where not even I can produce reason
To believe what fares so well, or so ill.

I can only stare, I can only follow.
I can only accept the fate tomorrow,
I'll see then what I can borrow.

Yet bring no expectation to my bed.
I will die before time.
Somewhere on the edge of the bestest of times...

Saga of Forgotten Ashes

Burning dreams provides smoke to cloud the senses.
Blinded from images of constant contemplation.
Always ready for the sacrifice... and the reward.

It comes from bringing joy, but should there be fear?
A smile which I cannot forget, but left behind.
Promised a soul piece, but today, death handed I have given you.

There is far more sorrow that the one portrayed.
There is far more tears that the ones described.
Alas, there is only one which knows the story.

From one day to the other,
From years past to new comings,
I still search... where I can stay...

Contradicting senses...

Unbinding Mysteries

Find yourself again in the same place.
Will this be the last? It's surely not the first.

My heart beats again.
Lively. Quickly.
Without remorse of my sins.

I just wonder...
The consequences of my actions.

Yet if I am but a traveler in her life?
Alas! At least I touched heart.
At least I brushed the core.

At least I know, I am beyond the realm of mortals' help.

She reminds me of valiant dreams.
She inspires that which I fear...

She...
Secretly...
Silently...

Unbinds my mysteries... one by one...

I Slept in the Forest Tonight

So what happens when life springs where the barren land found itself?

Times are changing...

And she comes along...

Will I crash into her life?

I must keep the forest pure. Fairies still live within.

My road could cut right through.

My will could bend the trees.

I must trend carefully through this forest,

Else caught between the branches or lost in the bushes I could easily find myself.

Explore carefully, adventurer, your fate still lies in your hands.